I had blog earlier about how it had (finally) occured to me that I might be a little bi-polar.
Oh wait....
Upon closer inspection it appears I didn't. Although after writing 'Hiding in the Closet' it occurred to me for the first time that I might be. It runs in my family.
Wednesday I was feeling quite on top of the world. By Friday I was feeling depressed. What happened? Nothing. That's the point. I had no reason at all for the mood change. By all right I should still have been feeling great.
However, when I began to feel down I did what I always do, wonder why. And that's when it hit me. Fortunately I had just written about beliefs and references here. I stopped looking for reasons to look sad and said to myself. What if I just feel sad for no reason? By looking for reasons to be sad I have inadvertantly been providing references for a belief that I had legitimate reason to be sad. That is to say, issues in my life that were causing me to feel that way. At times, of course I do. We all do. But not always. Often I just feel sad for no apparent reason - until I go attaching some.
By realizing that the feeling of depression is merely that - a feeling - unsubstanciated but any cause - I free myself from fighting causes (that generally aren't actually affecting my mood) to just working to snap myself out of an emotional state.
Worse, because I spend time looking for causes and then putting my energy against them I end up using the Law of Vibration/Attraction against myself!! Now I can just say to myself, 'It's just a feeling' and do those things that I know will put my back into a positive frame of mind (dancing, blogging).
That may not seem like much in the bog scheme of things, but it represents a fundimental shift in my use of energy and of my vibrational pattern. At least it will if I can continue to recognize the feeling as just that and not fall into the habit of justifying it. If I can create a habit of immediately doing things to snap me out of negative feelings then it'll allow my vibration to remain positive consistantly (instead of the up and downs I now have) and that should diametrically increase my life.
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