What a Difference a Year can Make

I am in awe.

I look at my life today, and back to even one year ago and the diffence - is immense.

I am in a place now, that I couldn't have thought possible just twelve months ago.

God is amazing.  He does listen.  He does deliver.  To those that walk in real faith.

Last year I was in a place of renewal.  I was disgusted with my life and knew it had to change.  It had simply become too unbareable to remain stuck in the place I was in life any longer.  I had made an absolute commitment to change, to grow, to transend my nature or die.

I hired Canfield Coaching, I did all the right things, all the planning, all the affirmations, all the self-development work, reported back, talked regularly to my coach.  Nothing.  I did learn a few things about myself, but I didn't change.

In the end, I gave up and ask God to do for me what I could not do for myself.

Since then, my life has changed.  I am now happily married instead of frustratingly single.  I am living in a beautiful home in a nice part of town, instead of a crappy junior one bedroom apartment in the bad side of town.  Where before I had debt, now I am debt-free (sans mortgage) and were able to save enough to get our current house.  While I still remain in the same job, I am focused on building my writing career and in action.  I have peace in my heart, that despite current appearences, success is assured, because I have a faithful God.

I am more involved in helping others and less involved in distracting myself - although I have a long ways to go still.

I wake up, and I'm grateful for my life.  I'm grateful for my wife.  Grateful for my kids.  I'm grateful for my new home.  I'm glad to be alive and living, instead of struggling to find a reason to live.

There is a certain, je ne sais quoi, that I can't put my finger on, a feeling I can't describe, a difference in me, that has premeated my life which I can't adequately describe. 

It is faith.   Faith that no matter what's happening, I am not alone.  God is with me and working on my behalf.  That He wants me to have everything, through Him and that as long as I continue to walk in that authority, that things will somehow, work themselves out. I have peace.

We just moved into a new house.  Our expenses have greatly increased.  Do I know how we're going to manage financially?  No I do not.  But I know we will.  I am working on leaving my current job and developing a livlihood - a lucrative livlihood - writing.  Do I know how?  No I do not.  I haven't a clue.  But I'm working on it nevertheless, undeterred by the fact that I don't know how.  It doesn't matter.  I have faith that career is manifasting even now.  Sometimes the way ahead swings into view - and it's overwhelming.  So much I have to learn, so much to do! At such times I find myself wanting to fall into old patterns; to distract myself, to get out of overwhelm.  Then I catch myself, turn it over to God and just continue to ask Him to do for me what I cannot do for myself.  Peace returns and I continue.   

Just like my marriage and now my house has manifasted, so too will my lucrative writing career.  I no longer question that fact.  I simply know it.  I have faith.  I cannot tell you how, or when or why, just that it is going to happen.  It is the next step in my evolution. I could not have told you how I would have gotten to where I am today from where I was last year.  I just knew I had to be somewhere different.  Now I have faith and in that faith, I have peace. In that peace, I have perserverence.  In that perserverence, I have prosperity.