Not going to talk much about the 100 day challenge. Not getting a lot out of it the second time round although, I am getting something out of it.
I haven't posted recently but you'll see on my other blog http://www.thecuphalffull.com/ I've been posting up a storm for the last couple of weeks.
The most significant thing I think in my life right now, worth noting, is that I am at the part of the book, Awaken the Giant Within, where Anthony Robbins gets to NAC - Neuro Associative Conditioning. Or in short, rewiring your brain for success. Changing what you link pain and pleasure too.
I'm excited because I remember this. I remember this working. I was really becoming a powerhouse when I started using it only to be totally knocked off the rails by the end of my marriage. Well if it worked so well, why didn't I keep using it? Lacked the P's my friend. Lacked the P's.
Didn't have the Patience.
I was mad at God so I wasn't Positive, stopped finding grace in Prayer, forgot the Promise.
Let my Passion slip, which undermind my Persistence, halted my Progress and I lost sight of my Purpose.
My Perspective was all wrong at the time, I was only focused on me for one.
In the end, the loss of my marriage was simply not a Price I was willing to pay. Had I had the right Perspective, that has come with age, experience, and a lot of study, I would have seen God had even greater heights for me. I would realized that the pain would pass and keep my mind only on the joy, on the lessons learned and on the end goal, knowing that whatever I lost would be replaced and replaced in spades.
See http://www.thecuphalffull.com/ for more on the Power 'P's for Enduring Success.
But at that time, I simply didn't want to let go. That love was the best thing I had ever experienced in my life. I didn't want to lose that! I couldn't envision anything better. LOL. How pathetic considering, in hindsight, it wasn't all that good. It was troubled, we were quite young and both came from less than ideal upbringing. We had issues and lacked the maturity to deal with them or each other. I became fixated on relying on my understanding and my strength instead of trusting in God's and keeping my focus on where I was going, not where I had been.
So many years later, and in reflecting here I see I'm still held back by a lack of vision - better than what I had (or my parents had) is still good enough for me. It shouldn't be. I am capable of so much more - why shouldn't I enjoy the finer things in life? It is not a crime to be rich, only a crime to seek money above all things. If in the process of helping others, I become rich, there is no shame in that and if imagining some of the benefits of having wealth helps motivate me to do what's right, why not? I need to expand my vision and be specific. And I need to stop looking back fondly on things that were. As nice as they were, God has better yet in store for me, but I can't get there if I'm looking backwards.
And I see how some old habits die hard. I look forward to using NAC and the Power P's to fundamentally change my life.
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